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Post by Anthony Robinson on Apr 26, 2012 15:06:05 GMT -5
 Right now, I should be writing a story, an epic story. However, I'm really tired from working at office today so I am postponing it to tomorrow. If necessary I can spend the whole day on it, so I will be fine. Not fine as in, safe. I will most likely be naked again. I do have an idea, FINALLY, but I'm not a writer. See, I write lots of long winded confessionals, but I barely have any sense of imagination and fantasy. I haven't read a novel in 10 years, and watched about 10 movies in the last 5 years... call me a barbarian  The worst thing though is my vocabulary. English is not my mother tongue, and while I can express myself in confessionals, conversations, and papers I write for work, my vocabulary is simply insufficient to write a good story. I'm just scared that my story will be embarrassing... BUT I'll keep faith and do the best I can. As for the game... Penner is gone. It doesn't feel right that he's no longer here. I do believe that he had my back, and I have been a terrible ally for him. I had two things going on at the same time, and both Penner and Yau were willing to take me to the end. I feel like I made the right choice by sticking with Yau a 100%, BUT it still doesn't feel good that Penner is gone. If he and Brenda were telling me the truth (which I 95% think they did) then they didn't even vote me (while they believed that Jen and maybe others were voting me). I kinda like that. I have such a huge target on my back, yet I manage to survive in the one round I'm not immune. This round is gonna be challenging again, and I kinda like it. What is coming, in terms of lies and deception, isn't going to be very pretty. I feel like Jen/Yau/me are sort of running things, and people don't really see that. They know we talk, they know we are the biggest threats, they know we are sorta close, but not that we are THAT close. Jen has been spreading lies and stuff about wanting me gone, while in fact she didn't want that at all. That's why Penner thought he was doing the right thing by telling me everything, while in reality I knew all of that already. He will feel betrayed. So will Courtney. I feel bad for her as she is SUCH a genuinely nice person. When I suggested Yau and Jen to possibly be close she laughed SO hard. She didn't believe it at all, and then she said "If they are then I'll feel betrayed". So she's gonna feel betrayed. In addition, Brenda is potential trouble. She may win immunity this round, and then we're gonna have to make someone really mad. I suppose that's gonna be Shawna. It will have to go the rough way though. It must be a blindside, so we must lie. That's gonna be really painful. She's kind of a threat to us though, and if Courtney/Brenda/Shawna team up then it's gonna be so much trouble for us. We do have our weapons though: Yau's prize making all real items fake for the round, my vote changer, Yau's potentially fake triple vote, and my idol of course. OH I should not forget to check with Jen if she got Shawna's prize. If she didn't then something else is going on. Or Jen is lying.... I must check this... note to self. But yeah, I feel like the villain in me is slowly slowly going to show and I'm not really happy about it. I was planning to be super nice and show a lot of integrity, but lies and deception are unavoidable at this stage. We'll see how it goes... |
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Post by Anthony Robinson on Apr 28, 2012 19:32:47 GMT -5
I'm just posting for the sake of posting. Nothing happened in terms of 'game' in the past two days, and I'm nervous for what's gonna come. |
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Post by Anthony Robinson on Apr 29, 2012 4:34:21 GMT -5
Right, so a lot of things to digest this morning. The outcome of this challenge is PERFECT, and Jen's been doing her work really well.
Jen got her third shard and has an idol now. She told Brenda and Shawna about this (yes girls I know she told you  ). Then YauMan won immunity, gave it away to Courtney, and got his third shard as well. This is what we've been hoping for. All three of us have an idol now. How dominant? Not wanna sound cocky, but yeah I think this is a wonderful accomplishment.
Now I hope my words at Tribal won't have an influence on how people vote. I mean, it's completely legit, but it'd actually be good if Brenda and Shawna vote for me and not for YauMan or Jen. Then they can maybe keep their idol when I use mine. I don't think I'd need my idol, but Brenda will pull out her prizes and that could hurt. Plus I can't take the risk of Courtney voting with them. Don't think she will, but if she feels it's necessary then she may do it. Simply stated, playing my idol won't really hurt.
I know for a fact that YauMan and Jen have my back to the end, and yes I will lose immunity next round, BUT I still have my real vote changer while others are running out of prizes. If it's up to me, this round we cut Brenda. I love her, she's a really great girl, but it has to be done. YauMan wants this, so we'll do it. Last round he didn't get his way, so I think this round things should go his way. I'd rather cut Shawna as she's more shady and less real, but no we'll go after Brenda. Then next round Shawna should go. Then at Final 4 it's Courtney's time. At Final 3..... Jen will get me out, I will get Jen out. Everyone except for Brenda is taking YauMan to the Final 2 bahaha. I'm thinking far ahead now, but yeah this is how I think it will go unless I'm blindsided at Final 5. |
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Post by Amanda Kimmel on Apr 29, 2012 10:21:39 GMT -5
One question: Wouldn't now be a good time to shake things up?
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Post by Anthony Robinson on Apr 29, 2012 10:35:42 GMT -5
Nah, I don't see the benefit of shaking things up. I believe in both Jen and YauMan. They've been good for me this whole game and they've always told me everything. Of course, since I've always been immune and they knew I had the idol they had to come to me because here is the power, but I just genuinely believe that they want to go to the end with me. Jen won't take me to F2, but YauMan will. Plus Courtney has a Final 2 deal with YauMan, and Shawna and Brenda won't take me either. They're too unreliable, especially Shawna. The only thing that I would shake up is to go after Shawna, but that would feel like betraying YauMan. That's the same thing with going with Penner last week. Had I done that, then I would have betrayed YauMan, the only person I trust a 100%. YauMan is all for our trinity and going to F3 with Jen, and now is not really the right time to maybe suggest taking Courtney over Jen (something I would consider). |
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Post by Anthony Robinson on Apr 29, 2012 13:50:54 GMT -5
I don't want to use my idol.
The plan is that Yau/Jen/me all use our idol. I think we will look like fools. On the other hand, if I don't play it then A. I could go and B. I go against what YauMan wants to happen. Not that everything he wants needs to happen, but this has been the plan for a while and he wants to make a 100% sure we all survive and he thinks we should all play our idol. I don't know though.
The bad thing is that I am the target of Brenda, so if any of us three should play the idol it's me. And I'm the one who doesn't want to play it. So that's tricky. Even Shawna decided to vote Brenda out, so I'm really only getting Brenda's vote (and whatever happens due to her using prizes). I don't think she can possibly get me out on her own though, so why look like a fool?
It's about trust though. I go along, play the idol, put my faith in Yau and Jen that they are NOT going to blindside me next week. Right, that's what they want, and I'm willing to do that. It's about trust more than anything. |
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Post by Anthony Robinson on Apr 30, 2012 2:06:32 GMT -5
I think we kinda did look like fools xD but it was for our trinity and to show each other trust and faith, I guess. I am happy to see that Brenda has her All Stars spot. She so deserved that! |
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Post by Amanda Kimmel on Apr 30, 2012 9:14:13 GMT -5
I think we kinda did look like fools xD but it was for our trinity and to show each other trust and faith, I guess. I am happy to see that Brenda has her All Stars spot. She so deserved that! Remember back when I asked you who you thought the #2 seed was? 'twas her  I've always been picking Brenda. She has been one of my favorites anyway. And her making it was obvious. <# |
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Post by Anthony Robinson on Apr 30, 2012 10:16:36 GMT -5
Ah cool! I didn't have a very clear view of her game until merge, but once I got to know her better I became a fan too |
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The worst thing though is my vocabulary. English is not my mother tongue, and while I can express myself in confessionals, conversations, and papers I write for work, my vocabulary is simply insufficient to write a good story. I'm just scared that my story will be embarrassing... BUT I'll keep faith and do the best I can. 
). Then YauMan won immunity, gave it away to Courtney, and got his third shard as well. This is what we've been hoping for. All three of us have an idol now. How dominant? Not wanna sound cocky, but yeah I think this is a wonderful accomplishment. 
