Episode #9: A matter of trust

[Anthony Robinson]

Hey... new episode, new drama, new stress! This weekend, not much has happened. I've been away, and have only been on on my phone. Talked to Penner and Shawna for a bit.

Yes, I talked to Penner. After my "No. blabla" he responded... It was interesting. We were bickering a lot. He is trying to save his ass in this game, I can feel that. I'll just let the conversation speak for itself (since this happened on my phone, I'll just type it out):

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Penner: Seems like it since you decided to null my vote for no reason as well as never tell me what the true vote was. But it's fine.

Me: Doesn't mean I'm avoiding you, but keep blaming things on me, fine.

Penner: I'm not blaming. I asked a simple question. And you DID null me. Both Jen and Yau said they did not. So I'm not blaming you for it, I'm accusing you of it. And you saved people who are still out for your blood where I fully had your back. Just last night right after the vote it was discussed already. By people you helped save. lies lies lies Penner, keep avoiding what I'm actually saying

Me: Right, but how do i know you have my back when you don't talk to me and intentionally took my item?

Penner: We're back to this. I told you you weren't online. And I had made a deal with Yau during the auction. And I couldn't outbid myself. He was online and you weren't, taking one of his prizes would have been fishy and he would have come freaking out at me. (He already was) Doesn't match his earlier story.

Me: So you start accusing me?

Penner: When did I accuse you? Of what?

Me: In PM about choosing sides.

Penner: Yeah, because we were both online. And I guess I was right, was I not? You just proved it by nulling my vote, which you didn't even know what it was.

Me: No I had your back you have been at the bottom of my bootlist the whole time.

Penner: Same with mine. So why would you null my vote? Basically saying you don't trust my intentions?

Me: I have family dinner, will be back later.

Penner: An auction is FAR different than a vote.

Me: You were out for Yau.

Penner: I was not. It was an idea. I never committed. We were voting Shawna. LIES FREAKING LIES

Penner: "Anthony: 'You were out for Yau.'" ... And by the way, that is precisely my point."

Me: Back for a little bit. I get why you did what you did in the auction, that's not my problem. You don't seem to want to understand my point of view though.

Penner: No, I do. I'm not worried about the auction. I'm worried about why you nulled my vote. Without even knowing how I was voting. And you said I was after Yau man. If I was, who really cares if my intention is to get you and I to the finals?

Me: And as for who is avoiding who, why didn't you talk to me last night? Why did I have to start a conversation when you barely answered my PM and didn't talk to me?

Penner: I did, but you said something and I gave a short reply because I was on my way out the door. And I did message you last night. You never replied. So his messages never arrived, right? Do I buy that??? Never got anything from him I swear.

Me: I didn't get anything.

Penner: Well I sent you a few offlines. We were both VISIBLE the whole time, wtf offlines? We were both online??

Penner: That's why I asked why you were avoiding me.

Me: You messaged me at 8pm est when I was gone. I never received anything, I swear.

Me: I have seen you on for 6+ hours and got nothing and I didn't want to start the conversation after those replies to my pms. I assumed you were mad and let you take the initiative. And these assumptions, you not talking to me, Chelsea not refraining you from taking Brenda's immunity, and you wanting Yau out made me use that nullifier.

Penner: Well I hope it works for you then.

Me: I had no clue where you stood anymore.

Penner: Because now there isn't a single person in this game who would keep you in if you're not immune. AND you burned those prizes on people who voted for Shawna. LIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEES

Me: Well, fine, it's fine. People voted Yau.

Penner: And when Chelsea posted I told her I was freaking out thinking she was starting on my tower. She said she was only around for about an hour before work and wouldn't do that just to ruin my tower.

Me: That's cool. It just made me suspicious.

Penner: Well, I guess we both jumped to conclusions. I just feel one was heavier than the other. If you had an issue, then you should come to me, not the other way around. How would I know you were having doubts? I'm not a mind reader.

Me: So yeah, I did go against you this vote. I explained you my reasons. It is what it is now and if you're upset then I get that. I'm not happy either.

Penner: Why wouldn't you be? Your plan worked perfectly and you're guaranteed like final 4 or something. You should be all smiles. RIGHT, so first I have no people left who want to keep me in the game, and now I'm guaranteed Final 4? Someone is nervous!

Me: Well I expected you would talk to me yesterday afternoon, but apparently you did and I never received anything im not lying.

Penner: I believe you. It just throws a wrench in a lot of things. And I wanted to help you.

Me: I am not happy with how things went with us.

Penner: I didn't get anything off Yau, but Jen is ready to vote you out if and when you lose an immunity challenge. Just so you're aware.

Me: Sorry I need to go. Ok well thanks for telling me that. I hope we can talk later. I'm seriously sad with how things went so well from now on let's just say what's on our mind then.

Penner: Deal.

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Look, I will confront him with a couple more things. I just don't trust him at all. They didn't vote Shawna, that's lies. This makes me doubt if he messaged me. He says he sent me offlines. That doesn't really fit with the fact that we both were on for 6 hours and other people were able to message me. I have a feeling that Penner is trying to save his ass here. He will stir trouble for sure. I had his back until he started to say bad things about YauMan, he just blew it for himself and I won't hesitate to vote his butt out now. I know no mercy for people who lie and who act like this.

The talk with Shawna yesterday was a lot better. We just talked about the vote, and she was happy that Courtney voted with us. She thought it was Penner, but I explained her it was Courtney and she was really happy with it because she likes Courtney while Penner gave her a bad vibe. I get that. So yeah that chat was good. Unfortunately I had to leave after talking for a bit, but oh well it was good to catch up!

[Anthony Robinson]

He is messing with me. Haha, I get around these things. Just had a chat with Brenda. I apologized for lying to her about the vote (I told her I was voting YauMan). Did this to start talking about her 'lying' since I 'heard' she voted Shawna. Look what she said:

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Anthony Robinson
I heard u lied about this one too but I don't really buy that
that just wouldn't make sense at all

Brenda Lowe 12:12 am
what did you hear? xD
everyone has been telling me who I voted for and I'm just like uhm...

Anthony Robinson 12:13 am
that u voted Shawna

Brenda Lowe 12:13 am
no sir

Anthony Robinson 12:13 am
haha ikr

Brenda Lowe 12:13 am
I voted who I said I voted for xD
but whatever, let them think what they want xD

Anthony Robinson 12:13 am
that's what I thought

Anthony Robinson 12:14 am
I'm like, why would you say you vote Yau and vote Shawna xD so oh well thanks for being honest about it

Brenda Lowe 12:15 am
I haven't really lied in this game except to kenny about his blindside
and shawna last round
and she got saved -__-

Anthony Robinson 12:15 am
lol yeah xD
awkward ><

Brenda Lowe 12:16 am
if she wins this game I'll be endlessly pissed xD

Brenda Lowe 12:16 am
oh well, i'm on the outside of the power alliance and there are apparently no cracks, so yay

Anthony Robinson 12:17 am
haha that I don't know, things shift like every round
so much can happen
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So unless Penner's "we" means him and Chelsea, Penner lied. They didn't vote Shawna. I never believed it as you can see in my convo with Penner when I kept saying "You voted Yau." but I just needed some more evidence. Had Brenda asked for a name, then I would have told her who told me the nonsense. She didn't ask, so I didn't tell her... but yeah, it's obvious that Penner is lying. Now I know that a lot of other things he said may be lies too.

[Anthony Robinson]

First time in a lot of rounds that I'm not immune... wow that's gonna be so interesting! I feel kinda naked, even though I still have my idol. Will I play it, will I not play it?

So first I'm talking to Jen. She is doing her typical "plant paranoia seed in Anthony's head". "Penner wants you gone", "Penner, Courtney, Brenda will vote for you", stuff like that. She didn't have a clear preference between Brenda and Penner as for who should go.

Then I'm talking to Courtney. She said she's fine with Penner going as they never talk. I doubt that, but oh well. She keeps fishing to what other people have in their inventory. She is all about information, information, information. I think Courtney wants to keep me though, for now.

Then talking to YauMan. He told me both Courtney and Jen proposed him a Final 2 deal. OMG him telling me that is huge. He wants to take me to the final 2. I mean, look at this:

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YauMan 9:37 am
Courtney asked me for a final 2

Anthony Robinson 9:37 am
wow ok

YauMan 9:37 am
her and Jen in the same 30 second period actually
she brought up that yo make finals you auto win

Anthony Robinson 9:38 am
I told her I don't trust Jen (just to see if she would change her plans on the spot if I said that haha)
haha lol

YauMan 9:39 am
i did the same thing I was like ya we will have to deal with Anthony later, sitting here going fuck that shit lol
Id send Jen home before you

Anthony Robinson 9:39 am
Same, a 100%
<333333 :-)

YauMan 9:40 am
espeically since when I talked to Jen she had the same ealization as courtney that you would win
I play to play with the best your deemed th best

Anthony Robinson 9:40 am
they are thinking about the win already wow haha
I never do that, I just wanna have fun
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So Jen and Courtney are thinking about Final Council already. Wow, that's early. Haven't thought about that AT ALL honestly. I refuse to look that far ahead. I'd like to see myself, Courtney, YauMan, or Brenda win at this point, but I guess that Jen would deserve it if she makes it that far. We'll see, I'm not really thinking about that yet.

Anyway, so we talk about the vote and who should go and she's like, Brenda. I'm like, Penner. I mean, I don't want him around anymore after he told me those lies. I like Brenda, she's way more real and is really getting fun out of playing the game no matter what. Whereas Penner, idk, I feel like we quickly became opposites in this game and I do blame him for that. We had such a good bond, but lately he wouldn't even do any small talk anymore and now on top of that he is lying about the game.

Whether or not to play the idol... look, they have prizes. Brenda has quite a number of them, Penner has the stuff that I gave him (how convenient huh??? Like I said when I gave him that double null =>>>> may make or break my game)...... so, if they pull all of that stuff then I may be going home. So maybe I should play my idol. Next round YauMan could use his reward from the auction and stir trouble with that. So I don't know.

[Anthony Robinson]

Just posting my votes. I'll be on right before the deadline in case something needs to change. Right now it looks like it's Penner. Making this parchment was kind of bittersweet you know. I've always had the thought of trying to keep him safe whenever he was targeted. However, we screwed up. Badly. I know that I am to blame for being so close to Yau and Jen, but Penner is also to blame for A. trying to set me up against YauMan who he knows I'm close to, B. talking dirt about YauMan, and C. his whole avoiding me on AIM and lying after the Chelsea vote. So we both are to blame. It does hurt me to write his name down though when I think of how well we got along at the start of this game.



This is just a backup vote in case the vote shifts to Brenda:



I'm not going to use my last reward or my idol right now. It's a risk, and I will look bad if I go out with the idol in my pocket, but like the title of this thread says, it's a matter of trust. I trust people enough that they will keep me in the game. Maybe I'm too naive, I guess I will soon find out. I think that IF I go out, it's because of people using prizes, not because of people betraying me. Then I'll leave with the idol in my pocket. Dumbbb, but I can say that I had a lot of fun and I will respect those who made the move.

[Anthony Robinson]

Dang Penner made me believe that he really IS a perfect ally for me; I just don't know what to do with it now. This conversation isn't drama free .

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Jonathan Penner (awaitthesunrise) is offline 10:53 pm
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Jonathan Penner 10:53 pm
So, do you need me to tell you that you're in trouble, or have you figured that one out on your own?>

Anthony Robinson 10:53 pm
hey how are you?
ehm yes I'm scared.

Jonathan Penner 10:53 pm
First thing Jen did was PM me.
Saying we need to take this opportunity to take you out.
And I am well.
How are you?

Anthony Robinson 10:54 pm
doin ok
right
and at the same time she's telling me you are out for me ><

Jonathan Penner 10:55 pm
No no no!
Remember what I told you even last round? She said she wanted to put the whole lying and me voting for Yau thing aside because she needs you to go.
I can show you the IMs/PMs I have gotten from her.
It would tell you who's REALLY initiating this stuff.

Anthony Robinson 10:55 pm
yeah you did vote YauMan, didn't you?

Jonathan Penner 10:56 pm
Oh. Was that not apparent?

Anthony Robinson 10:56 pm
well haha

Jonathan Penner 10:56 pm
Everyone thought I did.

Anthony Robinson 10:56 pm
u said you voted Shawna

Jonathan Penner 10:56 pm
I did. But everyone believed otherwise.
I was just saying Jen thinks I did.
But she was telling me she'd set it aside because you need to go.

Anthony Robinson 10:57 pm
ah ><

Jonathan Penner 10:57 pm
You plan to vote for me this round, don't you? Haha
Leaving people around who are out for your blood probably isn't smart.
But if you're just going to vote for me after I thought you and I cleared the air, then that's your move I suppose.
But you'll be out of this game faster than you know it.

Anthony Robinson 10:58 pm
uhm yeah

Anthony Robinson 10:59 pm
but I can only go with what people seem to be doing (that is, if they don't blindside me); how would I have to go against people when I'm the target myself?

Jonathan Penner 11:00 pm
You're voting for me. Your supposed closest ally from day 1?
When all I've done is try to help you.

Anthony Robinson 11:00 pm
I did the same for you

Jonathan Penner 11:00 pm
You even laid out 2 or 3 prizes to "save" Yau Man.
Yes, and have I ever voted against you? Hell no.
I've told you every time I've heard your name come around.

Anthony Robinson 11:01 pm
we cleared the air, but I still have doubts.
I just don't know what to believe

Jonathan Penner 11:01 pm
Ok, then let me show you everything your precious allies have told me about wanting you out.

Jonathan Penner 11:01 pm
If you still want to go with them when I've told you every time your name has come out of someone's mouth, then so be it.
But that would be horribly stupid on your part.
Let me start with the PM I got from Jen right after she saw results.
He Finally Lost!!
« Message sent Today at 3:26am »View Image

I was thinking for a second there that he was going to win again. It seems if we don't take this opportunity now he will win his way all the way to the end of the game. Hopefully this will work out, it is bit scary with DV rewards and stuff.
That should convince you right away, even though I'm sure it won't!
Everything she said and the way she said it, the title, shows a lot of excitement.
You don't see me running to her with PMs or IMs ready to boot you right away.

Anthony Robinson 11:03 pm
lol relax xD I am telling you, I just keep hearing different things and don't know what to believe honestly

Jonathan Penner 11:04 pm
I'm probably the only person in this game who is fine going up against you in the finals. I'm the only one willing to take you there. Everyone else you will have to win your way there.
Well you JUST told me you're ready to write my name down.
Yet you're the one with doubts about me? I'm not sure how this works.

Anthony Robinson 11:05 pm
there's just things I find hard to believe, both from your side but also I AM wary of Jen

Jonathan Penner 11:06 pm
Jen Lyon (10:20:21 PM):well regardless I am thinking Shawna next
Jen Lyon (10:20:28 PM):because she has been playing all sides
Jonathan Penner (10:20:50 PM):Yeah I agree with that!
Jonathan Penner (10:20:59 PM):But then what are you thinking next?
Jen Lyon (10:20:59 PM):I havent thought about all the way to the end
Jen Lyon (10:21:22 PM):probably Anthony and Yau, because I think they will be so hard to beat
Jonathan Penner (10:21:45 PM):Really? I thought you were close to both.
Jonathan Penner (10:22:18 PM):You and I will have to get prizes the old fashioned way because Brenda has no more money.
Jen Lyon (10:22:28 PM):yup
Jen Lyon (10:24:09 PM):well i like them but I don't think I can win against them, or anyone could
Then what are you worried about?? I'm here to clear the air.
Your move last round forced me into being alone.
So I'm not sure what you're worried about since I have no moves.

Anthony Robinson 11:06 pm
we were doing great, UNTIL that auction, that messed everything up; I had your back a 1000% and then everything changed ><<

Jonathan Penner 11:07 pm
Because I took a prize from you when you weren't online?

Anthony Robinson 11:07 pm
no because of all of the things that happened, not just that

Jonathan Penner 11:07 pm
I even told you I made a deal with Yau that I wouldn't take his from him. You weren't even online so to break that promise for someone who wasn't even online is absurd.
I don't even know what you're talking about.
You can't say "things" because I don't know what these things are.

Anthony Robinson 11:07 pm
your PMs

Anthony Robinson 11:08 pm
then we were both on for 6 hours during the last vote and didn't talk

Jonathan Penner 11:08 pm
Yes, you may not have picked a side then, but you definitely picked one last round.

Anthony Robinson 11:08 pm
and you said you did send me messages
but what do I believe?? Ugh it's so messed up

Jonathan Penner 11:08 pm
Ok, then vote me out.
You'll see how wrong you are.
Since Jen comes to me every round saying we need you out.
She said Shawna's playing all sides, but Brenda tells me what Jen tells her too.
JEN is the one playing all sides. Talking and scheming with everyone.
She thinks she has something with every person here, but she just told me in that IM I sent you that she wanted you and Yau gone.
Right after Shawna.

Anthony Robinson 11:10 pm
yeah I see that now

Jonathan Penner 11:10 pm
Jen even told me she wanted Courtney gone after you 2.
Yet Courtney voted against Chelsea, her supposed f3 ally last round.

Anthony Robinson 11:11 pm
well I guess that wasn't true
that F3 stuff

Jonathan Penner 11:12 pm
Apparently not. Or she has a more solid one with someone else.

Anthony Robinson 11:12 pm
she told me chelsea never talked to her

Jonathan Penner 11:13 pm
Well, that's not what Brenda said.
Brenda said they all 3 worked together because people thought they were together.

Anthony Robinson 11:14 pm
ah okay, maybe they worked via Brenda then, idk

Jonathan Penner 11:14 pm
Exactly.
But she ditched that alliance regardless.

Anthony Robinson 11:15 pm
ok one thing I'm still horribly puzzled about is that yauman or shawna vote..... because you said "we were voting Shawna"... so who was the "we", because there were votes for Yau for sure.
I know that it was bad to use that null on you I admit that but this thing still puzzles me.

Jonathan Penner 11:16 pm
What do you mean? No votes for Yau were even shown.

Anthony Robinson 11:16 pm
yes but when I was on around 7PM that day
it was decided that the vote was Yau
Brenda was voting Yau

Jonathan Penner 11:17 pm
By who?
Because I wasn't even around that day.

Anthony Robinson 11:17 pm
and it did make NO sense for her at all to change to Shawna (and she didn't vote Shawna)

Jonathan Penner 11:17 pm
And the night before I told Jen that I heard it was Shawna and that I would be gone most of that day.

Anthony Robinson 11:17 pm
well I had seen you on the whole time

Jonathan Penner 11:17 pm
Doing the challenge?

Anthony Robinson 11:17 pm
no during the vote

Jonathan Penner 11:18 pm
I was on that night.
That's what i said.
And no one said a word to me.

Anthony Robinson 11:18 pm
I saw you on around 1PM EST
for a long time

Jonathan Penner 11:18 pm
Brenda told me she wasn't hearing anything either and Jen was telling us that she heard Shawna.

Anthony Robinson 11:18 pm
and around 6-7PM EST as well
and it was decided that the vote was Yau

Jonathan Penner 11:19 pm
WHO DECIDED THAT?!?!
When did I ever tell you the vote was Yau?>
Brenda told me she talked to you and that you told her you were voting Yau and she never said anything to you.

Anthony Robinson 11:19 pm
Brenda got word from Courtney and from me that it was Yau
and yes I lied to her

Jonathan Penner 11:19 pm
Yes, so YOU decided it was Yau.

Anthony Robinson 11:19 pm
no

Jonathan Penner 11:19 pm
So why are you pinning that on me?
Yes.

Anthony Robinson 11:19 pm
no I didn't decide that

Jonathan Penner 11:19 pm
You just said you and Courtney told her Yau.
Ok, well then don't ask me since you never one talked to me, told me the vote. Nothing.

Anthony Robinson 11:20 pm
no when she wanted to know my final vote I said Yau

Jonathan Penner 11:20 pm
I never heard a word from anyone except Brenda.
Ok, then how was the vote for Yau decided?
That doesn't sound like a decision.

Anthony Robinson 11:20 pm
it was what we "heard"

Jonathan Penner 11:20 pm
Sounds like you lied when you told her your vote and left.

Anthony Robinson 11:20 pm
Brenda heard it
and she was thinking Yau more than anyone

Jonathan Penner 11:21 pm
Ok, then stop asking me like I know. You're saying you're puzzled at how the vote was Yau. You told her you heard Yau. Court told her she heard Yau.

Anthony Robinson 11:21 pm
so when I reported her my vote I said Yau

Jonathan Penner 11:21 pm
So you 3 obviously were the deciders in that.

Anthony Robinson 11:21 pm
and we were like, seems like everyone is voting Yau
so it makes no sense for her to vote Shawna

Jonathan Penner 11:21 pm
Ok, why are you asking me how Brenda voted?
Am I Brenda?

Anthony Robinson 11:22 pm
no, but you said "we were voting Shawna"

Jonathan Penner 11:22 pm
I was never involved in that conversation so how would I know all this?
People lie bro.
YOU lied.
Right to her face.
If Brenda's lying to you then that's something you need to take up with Brenda.

Anthony Robinson 11:22 pm
makes no sense

Jonathan Penner 11:22 pm
THEN ASK HER DAMMIT!

Anthony Robinson 11:22 pm
I did

Jonathan Penner 11:22 pm
Stop asking me what Brenda did.

Anthony Robinson 11:23 pm
she confirmed she voted Yau

Jonathan Penner 11:23 pm
Dear Lord.
Then why are you so confused if she told you?

Anthony Robinson 11:23 pm
and that's why I don't believe that YOU voted Shawna

Jonathan Penner 11:23 pm
You're being completely shady.

Anthony Robinson 11:23 pm
lol

Jonathan Penner 11:23 pm
You're asking questions about something you already know.

Anthony Robinson 11:23 pm
I'm telling you why I have doubts about what you told me

Jonathan Penner 11:23 pm
Because Brenda voted separate from me?

Anthony Robinson 11:24 pm
because you used the "we voted Shawna".

Jonathan Penner 11:24 pm
Fuck this.

Anthony Robinson 11:24 pm
and I don't buy that since it seemed like there were enough votes for Yau

Jonathan Penner 11:24 pm
How are you not understanding what I'm telling you?
How the hell would you know?! You nulled every vote!

Jonathan Penner 11:25 pm
You're digging into something you're just suspicious about that hardly matters now.

Anthony Robinson 11:25 pm
it does matter to me because I want to be able to trust you

Jonathan Penner 11:25 pm
It's funny how Yau doesn't care anymore and just wants to move on, but someone who wasn't even claimed as a target that round is digging into it far deeper than necessary.
You obviously don't.
Because you're completely interrogating me.
No matter what I say, unless it was I voted for Yau, would get you to believe me.

Anthony Robinson 11:26 pm
I don't care about the vote itself either

Jonathan Penner 11:26 pm
I'm telling you MY truth. What I know.
And you keep asking the same questions over and over acting like you'll all of a sudden get a different answer.
Here I'll make it easy for you, I voted for Yau man.

Jonathan Penner 11:27 pm
Do you trust me now?
I hardly doubt it.
But that was the only thing you wanted to clear.
So there should be nothing else.

Anthony Robinson 11:27 pm
right, cool

Jonathan Penner 11:28 pm
I'm glad I could tell you what you wanted to hear.
Now you can vote me out. Weeee!

Anthony Robinson 11:28 pm
><

Jonathan Penner 11:29 pm
Glad you didn't deny that.

Anthony Robinson 11:31 pm
well, yeah I'm not denying anything and I'm just honest and telling you what's on my mind. Sorry if I come off as obnoxious and interrogating, I just don't know what to think anymore, this whole situation is just messed up gahh :-\
it's a fucking mess

Jonathan Penner 11:32 pm
If you seriously think you're safe with Jen after what i showed you then...

Anthony Robinson 11:32 pm
then I'll find my ass on the jury

Jonathan Penner 11:32 pm
Ok, then why not try to prevent that after all your hard work?
Seems odd to just let yourself go if you don't win another one.
Whereas even if you lose another one I still wouldn't target you.

Anthony Robinson 11:33 pm
so you're saying they're gonna cut me next round, not this one?

Jonathan Penner 11:33 pm
No, did you not see the Jen PM?
According to her she wants you now.

Anthony Robinson 11:33 pm
yes looks like it :-\

Jonathan Penner 11:33 pm
And I don't.
Nor do I want you out later.
I'm fine sitting next to you in Finals, like I said.
I'm mainly after people who are playing innocent when they're really not.

Anthony Robinson 11:34 pm
I know what you mean

Jonathan Penner 11:34 pm
But you don't.
Because you're coming after me.
When I've been loyal to you from the start.

Anthony Robinson 11:35 pm
well I can tell who is fake

Jonathan Penner 11:35 pm
And who do you consider fake? Because I have a hint it's awfully similar to my list.

Anthony Robinson 11:36 pm
same, until that mess................. and I did blame both of us, but maybe my assumptions are wrong and I am more to blame...... ugh ><
we both know Jen is fake
dude who chooses the ultimate sweetheart turns out to be villain xD

Jonathan Penner 11:37 pm
I realize I HAVE been unfair to you. Because I would expect the same honesty from you.
So I really should not have blown like that when I probably would have done the same exact thing.

Jonathan Penner 11:37 pm
I just don't want either of our shots at finals to be ruined because of one round.
When we worked so well together before.,

Anthony Robinson 11:38 pm
yes it was perfect

Jonathan Penner 11:38 pm
It really was.
But Brenda said you were dead set on voting me.

Jonathan Penner 11:39 pm
I'm looking to change that obviously, but I'm not here trying to sway you just to save myself, I'm doing it to save us both.

Anthony Robinson 11:40 pm
yeah I see that and appreciate that a lot
my head is hurting from this

Jonathan Penner 11:41 pm
Jonathan Penner 2:59 pm
So what are you thinking this round then?


Jen Lyon 3:39 pm
I sent you a PM
I was figuring Anthony?
Is this good enough for you?

Anthony Robinson 11:42 pm
I know you're not making that up

Jonathan Penner 11:42 pm
There is one thing I have not done this whole game, and that is say I wanted you gone.
I may nod my head, but I never brought it up once.
If that's not someone you can trust, then I don't know what is.
I haven't even thrown your name out there to test what others would say to the idea.

Anthony Robinson 11:44 pm
right, and I did write your name on the parchment

Jonathan Penner 11:44 pm
Ok, well, I'm willing to forgive.
As long as it doesn't show in Tribal.


Anthony Robinson 11:45 pm
haha yeah I get that :-P

Jonathan Penner 11:46 pm
I mean i could be completely wrong. You could both be playing me right now, but from what I gather from my convos, Jen has wanted you gone since about the time we merged.

Jonathan Penner 11:46 pm
This is the first time you're immune since round 3. I find it hard she wouldn't try to get you out now.

Anthony Robinson 11:46 pm
yes I agree, I'm not surprised

Jonathan Penner 11:46 pm
Regardless, I am using a prize tonight.

Anthony Robinson 11:47 pm
yeah that sounds smart

Jonathan Penner 11:47 pm
Because I don't trust anyone else's intentions.

Anthony Robinson 11:47 pm
so what's the alternative option?

Jonathan Penner 11:48 pm
On the vote?

Anthony Robinson 11:48 pm
yes

Jonathan Penner 11:48 pm
Well, it seems it's either me, you, or ______ at this point.

Anthony Robinson 11:48 pm
yeah it is really me or you at this point I think

Jonathan Penner 11:48 pm
Brenda and I originally wanted to go a certain way, but I'm thinking Jen might be good at this point. She's obviously playing all sides.
No, I didn't say that.
It's not either you or I go.
Because with you we have 3 votes.

Anthony Robinson 11:49 pm
what's that certain way? Not my way?

Jonathan Penner 11:49 pm
Not your way.
Right now we have a tie if you vote with me.
But with my prize it would increase those odds by a good margain.
Which would mean whoever we chose would leave tonight.

Anthony Robinson 11:50 pm
yeah

Anthony Robinson 11:50 pm
but you two seem very much against Yau
(regardless of that last vote; let's not talk about that anymore )

Jonathan Penner 11:52 pm
We're not though.
It was more of a who is the best option to take out at this point in time?

Jonathan Penner 11:52 pm
Yau is a threatening player. Connections all over the place.

Anthony Robinson 11:53 pm
yeah but you also said other things about him

Jonathan Penner 11:53 pm
Like he makes me feel uncomfortable? haha

Anthony Robinson 11:54 pm
yeah and you've just never liked him, which is fine, but you know, I found it hard being in between the two of you during that auction ><

Jonathan Penner 11:54 pm
Yeah I'm sure.
Well it's not even that. At first I liked Yau, but he is odd and I know it's a woman, but the way she acts as Yau is what bugs me.
Calling me baby, saying he fondles me in chats, saying he kisses my neck tenderly and runs his hand up my leg...it's weird.
Offputting. Makes me uncomfortable.

Anthony Robinson 11:56 pm
haha uhmm ok I get that then

Jonathan Penner 11:57 pm
So yes, the vote was strategic and slightly personal.
But at this point I've moved on from that and I'm worried about the game more at this point.
Last round I felt completely comfortable.
Obviously when you're on the down side AND who you thought was your number 1 ally wants so badly to vote against you...you worry about things!

Anthony Robinson 11:59 pm
I don't know where Brenda got that "so badly" from
cuz that's never been the case

Jonathan Penner 11:59 pm
She said you were set on voting me.

Anthony Robinson 12:00 am
Brenda Lowe 10:24 pm
so, who are you thinking for the vote?


Anthony Robinson 10:25 pm
hey; I'm thinking Penner... hope that may... save me? :-\
hbu?
that's what I said

Anthony Robinson 12:01 am
not that it really matters for worrying of course

Jonathan Penner 12:01 am
Well I would worry if we hadn't already cleared the air.
I just don't want to leave without knowing what you plan to do.
Because I seriously think writing my name down and not Jen's would be a huge mistake for you.
Could be the difference between being at the end of the game or being on the Jury if you lose another immunity.

Anthony Robinson 12:03 am
yeah I get that :-\

Jonathan Penner 12:04 am
But you haven't decided if you'd actually rather write my name down or not, obviously.

Anthony Robinson 12:04 am
yeah sorry :-(
and you probably think that's telling considering that from your perspective you'd 100% know what to do
I mean telling about how much I am willing to do for you in return

Jonathan Penner 12:06 am
It can easily be you instead...I'm not trying to threaten, but I'm trying to find out a way to get you and I to the next round. But if you don't want that for me, then I'll have to send you packing. I'd assume if you haven't already seen a clear choice, then I know which way you'll be heading with this vote.

Anthony Robinson 12:06 am
the latter is not true
but yes I understand that since I haven't come to a decision that you may try to find other ways to secure yourself and may have to go after me, I get that it's okay;

Jonathan Penner 12:08 am
No, I mean, I'm trying to get you to help both of us. But if you decide not to come with me, you should have no doubt it will be easy to bandwagon after your impressive display of immunity runs.

Jonathan Penner 12:08 am
There are already votes there for you. I would just be sealing the deal.
And my prizes that you gave me would be very useful as well ensuring I stay.

Anthony Robinson 12:09 am
yeah

Jonathan Penner 12:09 am
What I'm saying is either we find a different target than you and I, or you'll find yourself on the Jury.
But I'm trying to make sure you and I both make the next round.

Anthony Robinson 12:10 am
yeah I get that; so it's either me or you, or there's a third option that we go for together

Jonathan Penner 12:11 am
Precisely. But that's all up to you.

Jonathan Penner 12:14 am
It could be easy to flip this round, then if you still want to take me out, you'll still have the numbers and there will be nothing to stop you.

Anthony Robinson 12:14 am
I wouldn't

Jonathan Penner 12:14 am
So it's really just for a round to get out a threat of yours while you still have the opportunity.
Then why would you now?

Anthony Robinson 12:15 am
idk, that's what I believe(d?) other ppl do

Jonathan Penner 12:15 am
What do you mean?

Anthony Robinson 12:15 am
that ppl are going for either you or me

Jonathan Penner 12:16 am
I've shown you that's not true.
Because it just takes your vote to change that.

Anthony Robinson 12:16 am
well yeah Jen

Jonathan Penner 12:16 am
Yeah, so why not take her out while you can?
Next round you won't be able to.
And you'll be forced to rely on immunities.
You're basically telling me you'd rather just let me go and hope you can make the end.

Anthony Robinson 12:17 am
I'm not thinking that way

Jonathan Penner 12:17 am
When coming with me would make it not so difficult.
Well you definitely should be.
Because that's what will happen.
You and only you are making this into a either Penner or Anthony goes home situation.

Jonathan Penner 12:18 am
That's not the situation present right now.

Anthony Robinson 12:18 am
right

Jonathan Penner 12:19 am
Ok, yeah I'm definitely leaving.
I'll see you around.

Anthony Robinson 12:19 am
><
I didn't say that
this is just giving me a headache

Jonathan Penner 12:20 am
It shouldn't though. I know I'm pressuring you but I'm trying to make you see.
You're overly trusting of these people when you shouldn't be.

Jonathan Penner 12:20 am
And what I meant was I'm literally leaving. Because it seems I can't knock any more sense into this.

Anthony Robinson 12:21 am
I'll go to bed and I'll be back 15-20 minutes before the deadline
it's probably all messed up, if you feel like you should vote for me to save yourself, do so
if anything else, PM me

Jonathan Penner 12:22 am
I won't cast that vote for you until I know for sure what you're doing.
I have one question.

Anthony Robinson 12:22 am
will you be on at the deadline?

Jonathan Penner 12:22 am
Probably not. That's late for me.

Jonathan Penner 12:22 am
Have you ever played in Shadow Survivor?

Anthony Robinson 12:22 am
no haha

Jonathan Penner 12:23 am
Ok. Just curious.

Anthony Robinson 12:23 am
did I remind u of someone? xD

Jonathan Penner 12:23 am
Yes, slightly.

Anthony Robinson 12:23 am
lol ok; well I've never played in that series

Jonathan Penner 12:23 am
dum2di1dum1 is his aim.
And he's from out of the country.

Anthony Robinson 12:24 am
I've seen that before but that's not me

Jonathan Penner 12:24 am
Alright.
Well, I hope you make the right decision.
Good night.

Anthony Robinson 12:24 am
have a nice evening, and PM me please

Jonathan Penner 12:24 am
About?

Anthony Robinson 12:24 am
if it even makes sense for me to vote Jen?

Jonathan Penner 12:25 am
Have I not been spending the past few hours explaining why it does? haha

Anthony Robinson 12:25 am
yes
but if you vote me

Jonathan Penner 12:25 am
I'm not voting you, I told you that.

Anthony Robinson 12:25 am
then well you'd of course say I should vote Jen lol
ok

Jonathan Penner 12:25 am
Like I said, I want you and I in the next round together.
However that happens.
I just see Jen as a big threat to both of us.
So seemed like a logical choice.

Anthony Robinson 12:26 am
okay... well... I'll have a night to think about all of this; probably won't sleep ><

Jonathan Penner 12:26 am
Please sleep.

Anthony Robinson 12:26 am
lol

Jonathan Penner 12:26 am
It's nothing to lose sleep over haha

Jonathan Penner 12:27 am
I'm actually hurt that it's taking so much out of you to decide...simply because one misunderstanding of one round.

Anthony Robinson 12:27 am
I get that
I'm really sorry man

Jonathan Penner 12:27 am
We'll see how sorry you should be after you cast your vote I suppose.

Anthony Robinson 12:28 am
that as well, but yeah I hate that I can't really come to a decision now, I get that it hurts, but I don't want to tell you one thing and then going back on it

Jonathan Penner 12:28 am
Makes sense.

Anthony Robinson 12:29 am
some ppl would probably comfort ppl just for the sake of it and then go back on it but I just can't

Jonathan Penner 12:29 am
I understand.

Anthony Robinson 12:29 am
and yeah that hurts, sorry

Anthony Robinson 12:31 am
alright, I'm gonna go
have a nice evening

Jonathan Penner 12:32 am
I would just like to point out one more thing before you go.

Anthony Robinson 12:32 am
ok

Jonathan Penner 12:33 am
You weren't entirely front with me either considering you used at least 2 nulls when you only told me you had one authentic double null.
Meaning you never told me everything you had.
So, in that sense I'd say on lying terms we are completely even.

Anthony Robinson 12:33 am
no wait
I was completely honest

Jonathan Penner 12:33 am
You told me you had a double null and Amanda said the rest of your prizes were fake.

Anthony Robinson 12:33 am
I had one double null, that's what I used

Jonathan Penner 12:34 am
Then how were 3 votes nulled?

Anthony Robinson 12:34 am
I said I had a double null and a vote changer
someone else did

Jonathan Penner 12:34 am
I didn't know about the vote changer. So you must have told that to someone else and not me.

Anthony Robinson 12:34 am
okay well that wasn't intentional

Jonathan Penner 12:35 am
Well, neither was me taking your prizes in the auction to make you mad.

Jonathan Penner 12:36 am
So there should be nothing holding you back from this vote trust wise. I should trust you the same as you trust me whether your concealment of the prize was intentional or not.
At this point you need to make a game move, not trust. And even so, the right vote should become apparent to you by the time deadline comes around.
And if it's still me, then i guess I must have done something extremely wrong.

Anthony Robinson 12:37 am
yeah; I'd actually like to look that up cuz I can't imagine withholding that from you considering where we stood but okay I guess it was miscommunication then

Jonathan Penner 12:37 am
I will look too. Maybe you did, but I don't remember. Either way I think you shouldn't base your vote on how many lies someone has told you or whatever.
Bottom line is Jen has thrown your name to me multiple times, I have not done so once.

Jonathan Penner 12:38 am
Ultimately I've shown the most trust and faithfulness to you in that area.
And I think I'm probably one of the only ones.

Anthony Robinson 12:38 am
yeah
I appreciate it a lot

Jonathan Penner 12:39 am
Not what I'm seeing. But I know what you mean.
Anyways, get to bed.

Anthony Robinson 12:39 am
yeah yeah xD
alright, yeah, have a good evening ttyl

[Anthony Robinson]

He's a sore loser, oh well, that reliefs the pain a little

Not JUST the worst ally ever, but one player I don't respect. You will be lucky to get my vote in the end.

[Amanda Kimmel]

Is he giving you any reasons why he feels that way?

[Anthony Robinson]

Not in that PM, but I can guess... cuz he's been sending me PMs during the night with how YauMan and Jen have said at several instances in the game how they want me gone. So Penner thinks this is a bad move for me, because I'm keeping the people that want me gone. He doesn't know that both Yau and Jen have been telling me all that stuff and Penner (fortunately) didn't see thru it. I couldn't tell him either of course... so yeah, he doesn't respect me because I take decisions that don't help me in the game, I guess.

In addition he's been saying that he's the only player that is willing to sit next to me in the Final 2. I believe that, but YauMan wants me in the final 2 as well. So do I turn on YauMan and go with Penner, or the other way around? It was a choice I had to make and he can't really judge which one is better for me IMO.

He even gave me negative karma, omg... I don't care really. I am genuinely sad that it went this way. I just ended up having two separate alliances, and I had this coming. One day one of the alliances had to break. I was pulled into both of them, I wasn't going to opt out of them and tried to make the best of it. If he's mad he can be mad. Just hope he doesn't hold a grudge :/

[Amanda Kimmel]

Happens.

Don't worry, I'll exalt you

[Anthony Robinson]

THANKS <3