Post by Alicia Rosa on Mar 27, 2012 17:36:12 GMT -5
Things are definitely going as well as I expected and actually wanted them to be right now. First, I had a bad score at the first Immunity Challenge of the season and, then, my internet went down for two whole days, exactly when there was a very, very damn big important vote going on at Tribal Council. I didn't even have a bootlist, so I got a self-vote. Well... Two self-votes, actually. I'm sorry about that, but thank god Host Amanda let me play in this week's competition. By the way, love you, girl! 
This week started really bad for me because, I think, everyone believed that I was a freaking inactive who deserved to go home as soon as possible because, everyone here is expecting all of us to be part of tribes sooner than later and no one wants weak players on their teams, so, the votes are being based, actually, in who's stronger or weaker, something that doesn't usually happen in games with no tribes, but that's a first time, right?
Then, when I got another horrible score at the second Immunity Challenge, I got really desperate and paranoid about the whole vote situation. I don't want to leave this game this soon. I'm definitely here for the long run and I really think that I still have so much more things to do right here in Kalahari. So, I'm really up for voting anyone right now. Like Sandra Diaz-Twine would say, I can vote for anyone as long as it ain't me. That couldn't be more correct in my situation. I have no alliances and people think that I deserve to go home because I haven't dome my absolute best in the two challenges, so I'm definitely gonna take every damn chance I have to stay a little longer in this competition, and maybe create some stronger bonds and relationships with everyone.
Right now, things couldn't be more chaotic. There's 16 votes in this Tribal Council and I don't really know what the hell is going to happen tonight when the votes are revealed. I don't know who's telling the truth, but that's A LOT of things going on right now and it sucks that I did such a poor job at the challenge, because I don't have much to say when someone tells me that I have a huge chance of going home today.
First, I talked with Richard:
Then, Michael contacted me:
Also, Angie and I talked earlier and we're both kinda unsafe about the whole situation. We actually heard my name in a lot of people's mouths and heard her name, so I'm really afraid that one of us is going home, actually. I got a lot closer to her in the past few days, especially today, and it would completely suck if I lost her in this competition right now, because I feel like our bond can actually develop into something better, maybe some kind of an alliance, which I would really love, because I don't have anyone on my side except for myself, which is never a good thing.
But, then, I decided to talk with Yau Man, because I can deeply appreciate his honesty. He's not a person who tells me lies after lies and I love that about him. So, check out our conversation:
Like, I don't think there are words in english language that can describe my feeling right now. I'm shocked, surprised, astonished and completely blown away by what's on right now. Things are definitely getting real in this competition and no one here is afraid to do a big damn blindside on the SECOND Tribal Council of the season. All I can say is: WHOA! I can't freaking believe that I'm much more in threat because people think that Michael is, like, my best buddy in the whole world or something than because I'm sucking at every single challenge right now.
Actually, I don't really know the reason people think that Michael and I have some kind of relationship, because I only know him as the host of one of the games I'm currently playing, Survivor: Peru, and nothing else. I don't owe him anything and I don't think I can trust him, so it's in best interest to vote him out of the game as soon as possible, because he's definitely hurting my game in so many places just by association and because I feel like there's a lot of people who want to take him out right now, so staying in the majority is an option right now that I'm certainly going to take, because I can't risk just throwing a vote on Shawna that can really help my game get better or, at least, as bad as it is right now.
This week started really bad for me because, I think, everyone believed that I was a freaking inactive who deserved to go home as soon as possible because, everyone here is expecting all of us to be part of tribes sooner than later and no one wants weak players on their teams, so, the votes are being based, actually, in who's stronger or weaker, something that doesn't usually happen in games with no tribes, but that's a first time, right?
Then, when I got another horrible score at the second Immunity Challenge, I got really desperate and paranoid about the whole vote situation. I don't want to leave this game this soon. I'm definitely here for the long run and I really think that I still have so much more things to do right here in Kalahari. So, I'm really up for voting anyone right now. Like Sandra Diaz-Twine would say, I can vote for anyone as long as it ain't me. That couldn't be more correct in my situation. I have no alliances and people think that I deserve to go home because I haven't dome my absolute best in the two challenges, so I'm definitely gonna take every damn chance I have to stay a little longer in this competition, and maybe create some stronger bonds and relationships with everyone.
Right now, things couldn't be more chaotic. There's 16 votes in this Tribal Council and I don't really know what the hell is going to happen tonight when the votes are revealed. I don't know who's telling the truth, but that's A LOT of things going on right now and it sucks that I did such a poor job at the challenge, because I don't have much to say when someone tells me that I have a huge chance of going home today.
First, I talked with Richard:
Hey, Richard
Richard Hatch
Hey Alicia how is it going?
Hello
How are you?
2:02 PM
Richard Hatch
Im good =D
2:03 PM
Seriously, I sucked so much at the challenge
Richard Hatch
Awww :-( what happened?
I had a much better time
But then I decided to do another attempt
2:04 PM
Richard Hatch
Aww :-(
I thought my time was horrible hah I messed up too
How much time did you get?
2:08 PM
Richard Hatch
45 mins
2:12 PM
Oh, that's good
So, did you hear anything about the vote?
2:14 PM
Richard Hatch
The three names popped out were yours, Angies, and Shawna
2:15 PM
Yeah, I kinda expected that
Do you know who people are leaning towards?
Angie or Shawna?
Richard Hatch
Shawna
As far as I know
Yeah
I'm hearing her name from some people too
I really want to save myself from Tribal this week
2:28 PM
Richard Hatch
I think you will be fine haha
2:29 PM
Thank you
I'm just a little bit paranoid, that's all
Richard Hatch
Hey Alicia how is it going?
Hello
How are you?
2:02 PM
Richard Hatch
Im good =D
2:03 PM
Seriously, I sucked so much at the challenge
Richard Hatch
Awww :-( what happened?
I had a much better time
But then I decided to do another attempt
2:04 PM
Richard Hatch
Aww :-(
I thought my time was horrible hah I messed up too
How much time did you get?
2:08 PM
Richard Hatch
45 mins
2:12 PM
Oh, that's good
So, did you hear anything about the vote?
2:14 PM
Richard Hatch
The three names popped out were yours, Angies, and Shawna
2:15 PM
Yeah, I kinda expected that
Do you know who people are leaning towards?
Angie or Shawna?
Richard Hatch
Shawna
As far as I know
Yeah
I'm hearing her name from some people too
I really want to save myself from Tribal this week
2:28 PM
Richard Hatch
I think you will be fine haha
2:29 PM
Thank you
I'm just a little bit paranoid, that's all
Then, Michael contacted me:
Hey
Odvetar
I just wished i had more time to try and keep you safe in Kalahari
3:31 PM
Thank you
Well, I'm hearing people are voting for Shawna
I'm trying to get people to vote for her too
3:32 PM
Odvetar
Really?
I did some hard talk to get Shawna out
But i had to leave last night
and i wasnt sure that ppl were thinking of doing it
3:34 PM
Yeah
I hope everyone's up for it
Odvetar
I just wished i had more time to try and keep you safe in Kalahari
3:31 PM
Thank you
Well, I'm hearing people are voting for Shawna
I'm trying to get people to vote for her too
3:32 PM
Odvetar
Really?
I did some hard talk to get Shawna out
But i had to leave last night
and i wasnt sure that ppl were thinking of doing it
3:34 PM
Yeah
I hope everyone's up for it
Also, Angie and I talked earlier and we're both kinda unsafe about the whole situation. We actually heard my name in a lot of people's mouths and heard her name, so I'm really afraid that one of us is going home, actually. I got a lot closer to her in the past few days, especially today, and it would completely suck if I lost her in this competition right now, because I feel like our bond can actually develop into something better, maybe some kind of an alliance, which I would really love, because I don't have anyone on my side except for myself, which is never a good thing.
But, then, I decided to talk with Yau Man, because I can deeply appreciate his honesty. He's not a person who tells me lies after lies and I love that about him. So, check out our conversation:
Hey, Yau
YauMan Rogers
Hey :-D
How are you?
58 mins ago
YauMan Rogers
I am good working on my two orgs right now how bout you :-D
56 mins ago
I'm good
I just woke up from a nap
YauMan Rogers
Ahh I wish I could have a nap.
55 mins ago
LMFAO
YauMan Rogers
my little one is like no more naps Im a big girl
51 mins ago
YauMan Rogers
I need to cast my vote soon for Kalahari too
Me too
I don't know who to vote for
49 mins ago
YauMan Rogers
I am voting for Michael. A lot of people talked last night about his plan to save slightly less "deserving" or active players to get their loyalty. People don't seem impressed that he is rallying so early for Alciia and Angie
Oh, he is?
YauMan Rogers
Yeah, a large group of peple came together and decided they wanted to take out michael sooner then later
48 mins ago
He said to me that he was trying to rally for Shawna
YauMan Rogers
Yeah he told a lot of people that too. I have not spoken with Shawna and I somewhat I agree what others ar saying
46 mins ago
It's sad to see him throwing me under the bus
YauMan Rogers
Not really sure why, I had just told him I had not spoken to some of the cast, and kind of trailed off. Wait your Kim or Shawna lol
(my labels are messed)
45 mins ago
Alicia
43 mins ago
YauMan Rogers
What in the hell lol. I have you ALL labelled wrong
Well I apologizie for writing bout you in my confessional as Kim :-( I will fix that
And yes you need to be wary hun, We got the vote off you, but the more he pushes his motives to save you to use you, because apparently you all know each other or something, the more it puts you in a bad light.
I mostly listened and nodded last night
41 mins ago
LOOOOL
Alright
He's the host of a game that I'm playing
I don't really know him
YauMan Rogers
Just sharing what I heard lol
39 mins ago
Well, thank you
I'll definitely vote for him
I don't wantto be in a bad situation just for association with a person I barely know
YauMan Rogers
I think if you get talking with the others, it can be helped, he just kinda painted you and angie as his minions
38 mins ago
I'm literally shocked by that
36 mins ago
Thank you so much for telling me that
I appreciate your honesty
YauMan Rogers
Often people think I am this big bitch, but I wont lie if I dont have to I consider it unecessary and I really have no issue with you
30 mins ago
Thanks
Well, I gotta go
ttyl
YauMan Rogers
Hey :-D
How are you?
58 mins ago
YauMan Rogers
I am good working on my two orgs right now how bout you :-D
56 mins ago
I'm good
I just woke up from a nap
YauMan Rogers
Ahh I wish I could have a nap.
55 mins ago
LMFAO
YauMan Rogers
my little one is like no more naps Im a big girl
51 mins ago
YauMan Rogers
I need to cast my vote soon for Kalahari too
Me too
I don't know who to vote for
49 mins ago
YauMan Rogers
I am voting for Michael. A lot of people talked last night about his plan to save slightly less "deserving" or active players to get their loyalty. People don't seem impressed that he is rallying so early for Alciia and Angie
Oh, he is?
YauMan Rogers
Yeah, a large group of peple came together and decided they wanted to take out michael sooner then later
48 mins ago
He said to me that he was trying to rally for Shawna
YauMan Rogers
Yeah he told a lot of people that too. I have not spoken with Shawna and I somewhat I agree what others ar saying
46 mins ago
It's sad to see him throwing me under the bus
YauMan Rogers
Not really sure why, I had just told him I had not spoken to some of the cast, and kind of trailed off. Wait your Kim or Shawna lol
(my labels are messed)
45 mins ago
Alicia
43 mins ago
YauMan Rogers
What in the hell lol. I have you ALL labelled wrong
Well I apologizie for writing bout you in my confessional as Kim :-( I will fix that
And yes you need to be wary hun, We got the vote off you, but the more he pushes his motives to save you to use you, because apparently you all know each other or something, the more it puts you in a bad light.
I mostly listened and nodded last night
41 mins ago
LOOOOL
Alright
He's the host of a game that I'm playing
I don't really know him
YauMan Rogers
Just sharing what I heard lol
39 mins ago
Well, thank you
I'll definitely vote for him
I don't wantto be in a bad situation just for association with a person I barely know
YauMan Rogers
I think if you get talking with the others, it can be helped, he just kinda painted you and angie as his minions
38 mins ago
I'm literally shocked by that
36 mins ago
Thank you so much for telling me that
I appreciate your honesty
YauMan Rogers
Often people think I am this big bitch, but I wont lie if I dont have to I consider it unecessary and I really have no issue with you
30 mins ago
Thanks
Well, I gotta go
ttyl
Like, I don't think there are words in english language that can describe my feeling right now. I'm shocked, surprised, astonished and completely blown away by what's on right now. Things are definitely getting real in this competition and no one here is afraid to do a big damn blindside on the SECOND Tribal Council of the season. All I can say is: WHOA! I can't freaking believe that I'm much more in threat because people think that Michael is, like, my best buddy in the whole world or something than because I'm sucking at every single challenge right now.
Actually, I don't really know the reason people think that Michael and I have some kind of relationship, because I only know him as the host of one of the games I'm currently playing, Survivor: Peru, and nothing else. I don't owe him anything and I don't think I can trust him, so it's in best interest to vote him out of the game as soon as possible, because he's definitely hurting my game in so many places just by association and because I feel like there's a lot of people who want to take him out right now, so staying in the majority is an option right now that I'm certainly going to take, because I can't risk just throwing a vote on Shawna that can really help my game get better or, at least, as bad as it is right now.
